Sorry if this has already been posted, I took a look and couldn't find anything but the Live Fanfic Thread. Well, here it is. I'd love to get commentary, good or bad.
Edit: Seeing as how there is a restriction to the number of characters, my oldest post after this will be edited to have the new chapters.
Crystal Clear Love
Chapter 1: Love and Beauty
SpoilerI awoke to tears in my eyes, yet a bittersweet comfort. My dreams of late were very strange, and this one was no exception. In this dream, someone spoke to me in a bright light, too bright for me to see their figure. They spoke to me words, and a familiar phrase, yet at the same time, unfamiliar.
"Whenever you lose faith, I will come and save you," the voice spoke.
These past few days have been very tiresome, and the sleep that comes to me has been very minimal. I can't help but ponder on the thoughts of the words Katsuragi spoke to me. The words that would break any girl's heart. However, the look I saw in his eyes was not the eyes of someone who was telling the truth about deception... it was the eyes of someone in desperation. But...what was he desperate about? Katsuragi has always been one who follows his own beliefs, and has never once been desperate in his life. So...what has changed with him?
The tears rolled down my face every time I thought of him. The words he spoke to me...were they lies? Or was he telling the truth? Every moment I thought of these things, these memories... made me want to forget even more. I wanted to forget my feelings for him, but as much as I wanted to... they just wouldn't go away.
I heard the sound of drumsticks coming from my mobile phone, and picked it up. It was Yui. To be honest, I really didn't want to talk t anyone who knew Keima, but unfortunately, pretty much anyone who knew me knew him as well.
I picked up the phone to hear a light voice speaking. "Chihiro-san. I was worried about you today."
I spoke back. "Worried, why?"
"You didn't seem to be yourself? What's wrong?" Yui asked.
I laughed a bit and decided I had to lie. "Oh, you know. Just feeling a bit stressed as to tomorrow."
I could hear a smile coming out of her voice. "Yeah, I know what you mean. But is that really all?"
I responded in a daze, "Of course, do you think something else is wrong?"
She sounded saddened, and remained quiet. A bit later she responded saying, "He's worried about you, you know. He won't admit it, but he is."
I sat down on my bed, and laid my back against the wall. "Who's worried about me?"
Yui began to laugh and said, "Nobody at all. Forget I mentioned it!"
I was suddenly the suspicious one. "Are you sure?" I asked. "You sounded pretty certain before."
"Yeah, I'm sure. Don't worry, I'm just a bit stressed as well, I suppose," she responded. "Well, I've got to go, it's late after all! Goodnight!"
To then I automatically replied, "Goodnight."
I looked at the time on my phone. It was 3 in the morning. Late? That's putting a bit mildly. Something must be bothering her as well...
The words from my dream came back to me. "Whenever you lose faith, I will come and save you." I'm losing faith right now... so... angel.. God... white prince, whoever you are...Where are you to save me? The words echoed throughout my mind, but with no response. Whoever spoke those words hadn't kept their promise to me, that was for certain.
I laid down in my bed to try to sleep for the next three hours, for what it'd be worth. I've been rejected numerous times, but I never had felt the uneasiness in my chest that wouldn't go away. The pain of not knowing what Katsuragi meant, or what he was going through... why he was seemingly desperate... tortures me. And it's because I love him.
I looked in the mirror opposite my bed, and saw someone looking back at me with a face similar to mine, but somehow changed a mild bit. She spoke to me and said, "You asked for someone to save you from your lack of faith? If you want me to, I can talk to you."
I looked at my reflection closely and said, "Who are you?"
She looked back at me, barely visible in the night and said, "I am Venus. The goddess of love and beauty."
"Venus? Love..and beauty?" I responded, shocked.
"Yes. For some strange reason, I was sent from Heaven. I have been resting in your body, waiting for you to call for my assistance," she responded.
"Resting in my body? How is that even possible? I must be dreaming again! Yep! Just dreaming! I'll go to sleep right now, and wake up, and you'll be gone!" I laughed to myself.
"You can sleep if you like, but that won't get you any further in discovering the truth about why the boy I helped you confess to is acting strangely towards you," she responded.
I sat up, flipped the light switch on so I could see her clearly. I inspected her carefully, and noticed she indeed did look like me. I sat down in front of the mirror carefully, and positioned my hands beneath my head.
"What do you know about it?" I asked her.
She smiled back at me and said, "Bits and pieces. But to be honest, nothing really extravagant. But I know, as the goddess of love and beauty, that laying down and trying to rest when your mind is preoccupied on the one you love is not an efficient plan."
I looked at her, shocked. "What is it you want me to tell you?"
She looked away, then back at me. "You only have to answer one question."
I looked at her and nodded. "The question is...?"
She looked at me and said, "Do you still love him? Or have you given up on him?"
I nodded to myself and said, "I still love him...I always will."
She nodded back to me and stated, "Rest now, and I will show you the precious things about times before that you have since forgotten."
I shook my head at her. "If I forgot such things, weren't they meant to be forgotten? I don't want to judge him based on the past. The Katsuragi I love is the one that he is now, and always was before."
She smiled and said, "It appears that I've been paired up with someone interesting, and very wise when it comes to love. It is based on these thoughts that I never restored your memories prior to now."
I gave a confused look then smiled. "Why ask now then?"
She responded, "I wanted to hear the words from your lips personally."
I nodded and laid down in my bed, with a new friend who would never leave my side, quite literally.
Katsuragi was right. I really am special.
Wait. What...when...did he ever say that? It's as if I remember, but I don't remember at the same time..
I shrugged it off. Perhaps when I wake up, things won't be so confusing.
I closed my eyes, and let my body's desire for sleep overcome me.
Chapter 2: That Which Reflects
SpoilerArriving at school, I laid my head down on the desk. To say the least, these past six hours have been odd to say the least, and I'm starting to have delusions that my body is being inhabited by someone named Venus who talks to me through my own reflection. Whether or not this is a dream, I am unaware, because when I looked into the mirror after waking up this morning, no one responded. Perhaps the situation with Katsuragi has caused my mind to breach its limits, nearing the point of insanity, in which I am imagining myself having a multiple personality.
"Chihiro!" A voice came from behind me. It was Ayumi.
"Ayumi, what's wrong? You've been acting different these past two days!" I asked.
I turned around to look at her. "Oh, Ayumi. There's something that's going on, but it's not really that big of a deal."
"Is it about Katsuragi-kun?" she asked.
"Katsuragi...kun?" I put the emphasis on the -kun ending. "Did your relationship change?"
She turned her head away and said, "No! What kind of relationship would I have with that geek anyway?!"
I sighed and responded, "Ayumi. He told me he didn't love me, that he tricked me... You heard that, didn't you?"
She nodded at me slowly and said, "Yeah."
"Is that why you've been acting so strange lately? Because you've been worried about me?" I asked.
"To be honest, Chihiro... I don't know. Hearing him say those things to you, they...hurt me... a lot. I wanted you two to be happy together..." She responded slowly.
"She loves him, you know." A voice said.
"Who?" I asked. There was no response.
"What do you mean "who?" Chihiro?" Ayumi asked.
I looked at her and said, "Didn't you hear someone talking?"
She shook her head at me. "Just us two, really. Nobody else is talking to us..."
I shook my head. I must be going crazy. I'm hearing voices again.
"You're not crazy, Chihiro. Ayumi loves Katsuragi! That's why she uses the -kun ending, and why she has such vague answers! She loves him! As the Goddess of love and beauty, I'd know!" The voice spoke.
I was hearing a voice again, the voice of Venus, and apparently I was the only one who could hear it. This was odd, but at least I wouldn't be talking to myself back and forth.
"Ayumi...?" I called her name.
"Ayumi...do you have feelings for Katsuragi?" I decided I had to be straight to the point to confirm the suspicions that Venus had.
"Me...feelings for him? Don't be ridiculous!" She shouted.
"I... see..." I responded slowly. I had no reason to push further. There really wasn't any things that happened in the past that would cause Ayumi to love him.
Ayumi nodded, and moved back to her seat. She was holding something back. She barely met my eyes whenever I spoke to her, and whenever she did, she averted my gaze immediately. Something was wrong with her as well. She had a look of...desperation. Just like Katsuragi... what was causing these two to have the same feelings of desperation?
I looked over to Katsuragi's desk, and saw him sitting there, pretending to pay attention the lectures, but I noticed he was spacing out. He hadn't been playing his video games in a while, which certainly was enough to arouse suspicion.
My mind thought to the past, and all of a sudden, I seemed to recall the boat at the pier...something happening there. I believe the person in the white light was there in the past. It was weird that this strange person was being remembered at all. For all I knew, he was an angel. I can't really say I understand the importance of how the human mind works, but perhaps Venus might know.
"Venus..." I pulled the mirror out of my pocket and opened it to see her face. "My memory, what's happening to it?"
She shook her head at me, "I don't know. I haven't restored the memories of your past, but they seem to be unfolding anyways. It's as if your mind wants you to remember in order to please your curiosity. It is possible that in time, you will remember who they are."
"Do you know who they are? You are part of me, if it is as you say." I asked.
She shook her head again. "I really don't. It's strange, because I can see many things of your past, none of which I have revealed to you, per your request. But the one you're remembering, I have no knowledge of at all. It's as if that memory is meant for you, and only you."
"Is there anyone that can help us? Any Goddesses at all? Other ones?" I asked urgently.
"There were six others in the past, they were known as the Jupiter Sisters, I believe. But they're sealed away, and they've been that way for many millennia now," she responded.
"What were their names?" I asked.
"Diana, Mercury, Minerva, Mars, Apollo, and... Vulcan, I believe," she said.
"I see." I responded.
"Chihiro!" A voice from behind me said. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I turned around, smiling. It was Ayumi. Apparently she had stood up, and was talking louder than normal, to the point where even Katsuragi was looking at us.
"Talking to your reflection, Chihiro? Isn't that a bit odd?" She said while smiling.
I chuckled a bit and said, "Yeah, I'm feeling a bit strange these past days, and talking while seeing myself feels...calming, I suppose."
I was hesitant in my answer, but I hoped she believed me. She then spoke back, "Well, don't talk to it too much, or you might go crazy and think there's someone talking back." She gave me a slight smile and sat down. It was strange that she got out of her seat just to question me. Overall, I feel relieved that she didn't call me crazy or anything like that.
I heard more footsteps approaching me, and I felt a presence behind me that made me stand up straight.
"Tell me, Chihiro. Why are you talking to yourself?" The male voice said.
I turned around to see Katsuragi staring right at me.
Chapter 3: What We Remember
Spoiler"Don't trust him," Venus said to me in my mind.
After taking me outside the classroom to the roof where I kissed him, Katsuragi stopped and turned towards me.
"There are things I need to talk to you about." He said.
"What is it, Katsuragi? What do you want?" I responded angrily.
"Seeing you talking to yourself makes me concerned for your sanity." He responded.
Putting Venus's words into consideration, I replied, "So, you're concerned for me, are you? How considerate of you, considering the last time we spoke."
His head fell down, as if he was feeling a great amount of regret, or possibly even be in despair.
"I...I didn't want you involved. It's for your own good!" He responded.
"And Ayumi can be involved? Is it because she's a runner?" I shouted at him.
"It's...it's not like that at all!" He responded.
"I understand that I'm not all that great. I'm not cute at first glance, and I don't shine like everyone else! I'm not like Kanon-chan! The real world has limits, is that what this is about?!" I shouted even louder.
These words however seemed familiar to me. I don't even know why I said these things... it seemed to be more rambling than anything...
I stuttered and walked away slowly saying the words, "I can't be involved....because I'll always be average..."
These words also seemed familiar to me, in a nostalgic way. And not that I've spoken them before, but this situation... it seemed...so familiar. Like a time that passed such a short while ago, while still being forgotten so easily.
"What are you doing, Chihiro? Why are you saying these things?" Venus said to me. "These emotions of yours shouldn't be coming out! Maintain your composure, Chihiro!"
I sighed, "Katsuragi, it's not that I don't want to believe you. It's that you and Ayumi have been awfully secretive ever since I visited you at your house when you were sick. I came to see you because I wanted you to hear the tune from before. But the truth is, Ayumi called me afterwards. She said she heard that I confessed to you through "whispers in the wind". But...she was there when I confessed, wasn't she?"
He nodded. "Yes, she was."
I looked at him with a glare. "I knew it. Why didn't you tell me? What are you both so desperate to hide that she'd hide it from her own best friend! And you went on a date with me knowing that it was a date! You knew it! You were desperate to hide something, and I saw Ayumi there after I left! In this exact same spot!"
He looked to see where I was standing.
I continued. "I love you, Katsuragi. I always will. But the fact is, Ayumi loves you too. And I can't stand that. I know she gave up her chance with you so that she could support me and still be my friend. But the fact is, you both can't be so desperate forever. Even people like you need someone to talk to. So please, Katsuragi. Stop being secretive, and talk!"
"I'm not hiding anything from you, Chihiro," he responded. "You're imagining things. I'm not desperate to hide anything from anyone."
"LIAR!" I screamed. "Why do you continue to lie?! WHAT BENEFIT DO YOU GET OUT OF IT?! Are you some sort of God I have to bring a peace offering to?"
When I spoke the words of the offering to him, I realized that these words also sounded familiar. I wondered that if all these moments, all these tidbits of my realization were coming together.
Katsuragi sighed. "I know a few people who seem to talk to mirrors. They seem to think people are talking back to them. Ridiculous, if you ask me. Only people with some sort of multiple personality disorder, no...schizophrenia...would think that. And now you're talking to mirrors too. Tell me, Chihiro. Are you completely sane? What is it you see in the mirror? Is it yourself? Or is it someone else?"
Venus spoke to me and said, "Don't tell him. He seems to know about me, for some strange reason."
I nodded in agreement. "I see just me. That's all there is, right?"
He nodded. "I suppose so. Well, I was also told by said people seem to believe they're being targetted. But they needn't worry. If there really is someone crazy like that, they should know that whenever they lose faith, I will come and save them."
The last words he spoke acted like a sunrise in a veiled clouds. The man from the light...it was Katsuragi. And the place where I was at was the boat on the pier.. he spoke words to me about me not being average. He k-kissed me... I blushed at the thought and looked away. How could I have forgotten something as momentous as my first kiss?
Katsuragi acted weird when I told him two nights ago that if he were to kiss me, it would be my first kiss.. So, he...actually knew otherwise? I couldn't help but blush at the thought that I had forgotten, and he had remembered.
I punched Katsuragi in the stomach.
"WHAT WAS THAT FOR?!" He screamed in pain.
I responded, "Revenge for not reminding me that...we kissed...before. Sorry...I forgot." The response was sort of shy, but I think it was good enough.
"Wait, you remembered?" He asked with a hint of curiosity.
"Yeah, I forgot before, but now I remembered. Sorry, I forgot." I walked off somewhat shyly, and somewhat happy that I remembered, but he was standing behind with his hand on his chin, lost deep in thought.
Venus said to me, "I didn't restore your memories.. to be honest, I had no idea such a thing even happened...?"
I smiled and said to her, "Well, I'm hardly average, so there's nothing to be worried about."
Her voice had a hint of happiness in it. "You certainly aren't. But there's nothing wrong with that.
I sat back down in my desk, just in time for attendance for English class to be taken. Katsuragi was late, and Kodama -sensei looked to be in a relatively good mood as he took attendance.
I was happy to remember some of the things I'd forgotten, but something then came to mind. If this memory of which I'd forgotten wasn't what Venus could've restored, then what memory was it? What had I forgotten that I didn't remember forgetting?
Chapter 4: Pleased To Meet You
SpoilerAfter exiting the final class, I began the walk to the pier, in hopes that I could remember everything. I walked across the bridge that led to the old boat, which had seemingly been docked there for quite a while now, and had no intention of leaving.
The scenery was familiar, I recalled everything about this moment, my first....kiss. The texture was soft and moist, and even though it lasted only moments, the warmth that spread throughout my body lasted for much longer. The confidence I'd built was thanks to this moment, but I had to wonder what happened that made me lose that confidence. Perhaps that is what I've forgotten? Or maybe it's something else? I suppose it wouldn't be called "forgotten" if I could remember it right away.
I looked over the boat into the water, a reflective surface, and began to speak.
"Venus, what was it I forgot?" I asked.
"It's difficult to tell you..." she responded.
"Are you unable to tell me?" I asked.
"It's not so much that I can't tell you, it's that you requested me not to," she said.
"Well, I think that I should know now, so please tell me." I stated.
"I can tell you, but what your memory has been hiding has been hidden for good reason... if you remember this, there's no turning back. Are you okay with that?" She asked.
I nodded, "I am. I want to know."
She also responded with a nod, and I felt a weird sensation moving throughout my body. Slowly, piece by piece, all of the memories restored themselves like pieces of a puzzle, slowly coming back together.
Once everything had come back together, I dropped to my knees and began to cry.
"I'm sorry, Chihiro," she said in response to my tears.
"This...this...it can't be. How is this possible? Why would he do this? How many of them are there?"
She responded, "Sixteen, including yourself."
I replied, "But, why would he do this? Is he just trying to monopolize women or something? It's so cruel!"
"Perhaps you should ask him yourself?" She said.
That sounded like a good idea. Perhaps there was a reasonable explanation for this after all? I sure hope that there is, otherwise... I don't know what I'll do...
I picked up my mobile phone, and sent Katsuragi a message via it. It said, "We need to talk. Meet me outside the school library in two hours."
An hour and a half later, I arrived at the school library. I saw Katsuragi waiting there. I didn't know how long he'd been waiting for, seeing as how he'd gotten here at least half an hour early.
"Chihiro, what's so important that you had to gather me in such a place? I do have other things to do, you know," he said.
"Like seduce fifteen other girls? Oh wait, you only successfully seduced thirteen, I'm sorry," I responded.
"How...how do you know that?" He responded, clearly shocked.
"I remembered, obviously.." I replied.
"You remembered? Chihiro, this is a problem..." He said, saddened.
"So what? Are you going to erase my memories again? Make me think that none of this ever happened? That I never fell in love with you? Because that's what happened to the others, isn't it? The question you should be wondering is-"
"Why did you remember?" He interrupted.
"Mercury? Is that her name?" He asked.
"Mercury? Who is that?" I responded.
"Chihiro, Mercury is the name of one of the Jupiter Sisters!" Venus said to me.
"Tell me, Katsuragi. What does the term "Jupiter Sisters" mean to you?" I asked.
He fell silent. "Chihiro, you shouldn't be involved in this," he responded after a pause.
I walked away, and felt a soft pressure on my lips. Katsuragi's lips had met mine. But unlike before, this wasn't a warm feeling. It was cold, and clearly forced. There was no love in this kiss. It was merely a means of deception.
"Is...this what you did with the others, Katsuragi? How much do you need to toy with people's hearts until you're satisfied? AND WHY IS IT THAT EVEN AFTER ALL OF THIS, I STILL LOVE YOU!? WHY?!" I spoke with immense anger.
"Chihiro. You're right.. I have toyed with others hearts... but only because I knew they'd forget. They may have forgotten, but I never forgot any of them. But six of them remembered after a while..." He slowly explained.
"Kanon-chan and Ayumi..." I stated.
"Yeah, they're two of them." He nodded.
"Who else?" I asked.
"Shiomiya Shiori from 2-C, Goidō Yui and Kujyō Tsukiyo from 2-A, and my next door neighbor, who I met a long time ago." He replied in a very serious tone.
"Yui...remembers?" I asked.
Keima nodded without saying anything.
This was getting problematic. Yui had never really shown much interest in Katsuragi, but it's not like she showed that she didn't have interest. This conclusion was possible.
"So...what's so special about these people? What makes Ayumi and Yui any different from me?" I asked.
"It's not how they're different, really. It's how you're different. How is it you remember more than them? To be honest, what you remember couldn't possibly be known to you, because there is no way you could have seen me with all those girls." He stated.
The logic he brought up was very true. For some strange reason, I was remembering things that there's no way that I should've been able to remember, as I couldn't possibly have witnessed them first hand. This didn't make sense.
"There's only one way you could've remembered," he said. "Somehow, you must be integrating my memories with your own, to make it seem like you were there the entire time. But the question is...how did you do it? How did you remember?"
I saw hair drape forward in front of my eyes, and lengthen down to my shoulders. Katsuragi's response was shock, if not utter horror at seeing my body change right before his eyes.
"Who are you? You clearly aren't Chihiro." he asked.
Venus chuckled and stated, "You don't seem so surprised to meet me. My name is Venus, daughter of Saturn. I am the goddess of beauty and love. Pleased to meet you."






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